tangled. feisty (not in the deliciously endearing kind of way). sensitive to loud-ness. not wanting to be in process. wanting to be in control. growl. that's how it is for me in this moment (as i write this) & in other moments today.
i'm watching myself, witnessing myself when i do, when i stop just enough, just a smidge. [smidge. ha-ha-ha! that's a bella word.] i want to sit myself down and say, "yo', what's up with you, girl? for real, what's up?"
i feel antsy. unsettled. dis-satisfied. i feel like i'm living more in the future, more in anticipation, rather than in presence and awareness. my energy is scattered. i jump from one thought to the next to the next. i'm not centered. i'm not inhabiting my body, my being-ness. noticing how un-comfortable this is. i'd rather not be here...again. and, here i am. in all my red-headed glory. me. here. now. so, i will sit and wait as best as i know how in this moment.
as for glimmers:
*remembering some of bella's words: smidge, sass, smoochies, yummy, snuggle, super, yay! (or, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay), neat, mwah and kiddo.
ah, isn't it most delightful, this bundle of bella words?!
what are some of the words of the ones you love-like-crazy?